I know it has been awhile since I have written anything on my blog. More often than not I feel like the things swimming around in my head don't amount to much.
I think this post will be therapeutic for me though, and hopefully I'll be able to spit out some useful advice as well.
My Grandma had a saying that my mom always repeats. When it rains, it pours. When I was younger I never really understood what that phrase meant, but as I have grown up and life has gotten more complicated and the decisions more demanding with far reaching consequences I have come to understand. When it rains we don't get to decide how long it will last, how hard it will rain or the damage it will do. We can certainly prepare if we know it's going to be a doozy of a storm, but can't do much besides wait for it to pass. Life is much like those rainstorms. And more often than not it's not a warm, gentle drizzle, it is a down pour complete with thunder and lightning.
But that is when we get to decide if we are going to dance in the rain, or if we are going to simply endure it and wish that it would stop.
These last couple of weeks have been full of stress. I don't think I have been so stressed out since my mission...and that's saying something! I had to leave Alaska and everything I had come to love there. I had to come home and live with the consequences of choices I had made. I went back to school for the first time in 3 years. My truck needed new tires, and my computer decided to erase all my files. A doozy right? Well, at least it has been to me. The hardest part has been trying to figure out what I want and what I need and what is going to make me happy. It's hard when everything seems to come to a head at the same time, and even harder to see the positive side of things.
Have you had enough of my pity party yet? Good, because I have too. See? I told you this would be therapeutic.
When it's all said and done, we can't do much more than take things one day at a time. What seems like the end of the world at 9:30 at night is always a little less bleak the next morning. The solutions come one by one, and even if they don't we start to understand better how to handle the situations we are given. That heaviness in our hearts starts to lift and we remember that there is sunshine after all. We just needed a little bit of rain to appreciate it more.
